I have never really entertained the idea of dating a guy with a child. Not only because your imagination immediately drags up the image of a man in his thirties going squidgy at the edges, but also because that child represents an irreversible bond he will always share with that other woman. When we meet a guy, we know he's got a past (haven't we all?) but it's not really ideal to have that past staring right at you. Especially when you're not supposed to resent someone so innocent. However, I've had a change of opinion...

As some of you may know, I've spent over a year working at a pub so it should come as no surprise that this bloke is actually another customer (will I ever learn?), only this time I can assure you all that he is 100% single. And he is, in fact, younger than me - only by six months but I am so attracted to him, which is strange as up until three weeks ago I never paid him any particular attention. The weird thing is, is that once I see a man with a child, the attraction vanishes but with him, I don't care. I suppose if you look at the situation intelligently, him having a child could be a bonus. I may not know this first-hand but I've heard that children and maturity come hand in hand like smoking and bad lungs (I couldn't think of a more appropriate simile lol). Plus, him having a child now could hopefully significantly put him off wanting anymore for a very long time!

Now I had better set the record straight, I am not dating this guy, in fact he doesn't even know that I'm interested but I've heard through the grapevine that he is in me which makes me wonder, do I make a move? And no, that isn't a rhetorical question, I need guidance lol. I'm just a little wary considering that I have been with two customers already, one had a girlfriend (let's not dwell on that shall we?) and the other one hadn't long come out of a long-term relationship and after being a complete sweetheart, one month later I was left humiliated and in tears. Could this be third time lucky perhaps? Or will I become the girl who has gone with 'yet another customer'. I don't even have the excuse of not being able to meet men elsewhere because since September, I have been a full-time Uni student, although to be the honest there are no groups of 'hotties' that I was promised.
It has been a while since I have written and I'm in a much better place now but I still love doing all this teenage angsting, when I was younger I really believed by the time I reached 23, I'd have all the answers but I am still as clueless as I was six years ago, I'm just a little more careful with words and actions now.

University is good, in fact I'm having a real good time and I don't know how it's happened but I have become a little bit, should I say typical? I have got a little lazy but I reckon that because I have worked full-time for years, to hell with it and I should just let my hair down for a while.
Let's hope by next time I write (and I won't leave it so long), that I have this male situation sorted...

Then again, knowing me I won't :-P ...